Praying every day for years and still not getting a favourable answer can do things to a person. Sometimes it’s the most “faithful” ones who are hurt the most when they feel like God has abandoned them in spite of their “faith”.
The thing is, in traditional Christian doctrine, it can get very f***ed up when a supposedly omnipotent god supposedly has good reason for all the terrible sh*t that happens in the world. And when one happens to be getting the sh*t end of the deal, one may well be justified to wonder what kind of f***ed up god this is.
Traditionally, Christianity has some answers to this so-called “problem of evil”, i.e. why would a good god allow/do such terrible things?
One of the standard answers is that God’s ways are higher than our ways. Which is pretty much an example of blind belief in an apparently malevolent god who claims that all the terrible things he’s doing is right because he’s smarter than you.
Some people are apparently fine with this. However, I’m not so satisfied with this version, so I take a different approach:
Thinking about it rationally, the only reason a good person would do something bad, is if he’s forced to choose the lesser of two evils. In that case, the lesser evil is actually a good choice. Good and Evil are actually just opposite ends of the same line. The point separating “good” from “evil” is somewhat arbitrary.
The above may seem strange, because why would an omnipotent god have to choose a lesser evil? Traditionally, omnipotence is understood as “infinitely powerful”. But this is not necessarily correct. It’s not even faithful to the Latin roots of the word, where “omni” actually means “all”. “All” is logically quite different from “unlimited / infinite”.
So, I suggest that the suffering person need not imagine that God is deliberately making them suffer. It’s just that all power isn’t quite the unlimited power that irresponsible theologians have made it out to be.
In Christianity, God subjected his own son, Jesus, to cruel torture in order to save the world from sin. Even Jesus prayed to avoid it if possible, but apparently it was the best way already.
Mark 14:36 Common English Bible (CEB)
He said, “Abba, Father, for you all things are possible. Take this cup of suffering away from me. However—not what I want but what you want.”